Making Bangs Out Of Old Extensions

So the other day I was bored (while 'making' homework). And I'm a huge procrastinator.. Just guess what I did. I always wanted bangs, but was afraid to cut bangs. I still am.  So I searched around and found my old extensions. My Clip-ins. Since I wasn't using them anymore, I just decided to cut them into bangs. The things I do when I'm procrastinating haha shame on me. This is the outcome.

You can see a bit of the color difference, but hey! I'ts not like I'm going to 'wear' this to school!

And pigtails. Lol I thought that I should try that.. 

From the side.. Bangs in my eye

You can now clearly see the difference from the bang and my own hair.. (Mine hair is not that straight wtf)

My mom didn't like it, and my sister said that my face is 'too small'. Whatever that means -.-
But I  actually liked the idea of bangs!? Hiding pimples. No need to worry about eyebrows.
So what do you think?

What's going on right now?

Let's start with a GIF of myself. I guess you guys haven't seen my face yet, well at least not that clear. SO here it is...

 And another one just for fun(when I was bored on a Sunday, that means without makeup)

I tested out how my clip-in extensions looked. Still didn't wear them in public. What do you think?

Okay enough lol.

I haven't written a blog post for a whole month. Mainly because I was/am busy with my final exams. And now I'm free for the next 8 weeks! (Summertime!) After 'SUMMERTIME' I'll go to a new school/college! (an kind of like Art school). I didn't finish this one... Because this wasn't "me". I felt locked up. And I couldn't express myself. I was put in a class with the kind of people I used to avoid in High school. Not that I hated or dislike them, but just because I know with what kind of people I feel comfortable with. But I wouldn't say that this year was a complete waste.

 Because when we moved here I didn't have friends and all my 'old friend' had fun while I was sitting in my room feeling sorry for myself. One of the worst things you can do. But luckily I have the best friends I could ever dreamed off, No it's true. How many people would still try to make contact, put so much effort in one circle of friends? After their friend moved 59.952 Miles away just tell me? Usually a person would try for what 3/4 months? in the beginning to keep the contact, but after a while they just give up. And I have to admit I would do the same if it wasn't for a close friend. The best part is that it isn't just one friend, no. All 8 friends. Yes sounds like I don't have many friends, but good friends can only be counted on 2 hands (or 1 lol).

They visit me, I visit them. We still have sleepovers/slumber party's, And they still invite me to shop with them even if that's a 2/3 hour train ride for a half day of shopping. And I'm incredibly grateful for that.  The only thing I truly regret is that I didn't had the confidence to show myself, make new friends and enjoy my new environment.

I know I can be socially awkward sometimes, quite, observing, shy and introvert, but if I just 'showed' more of myself I know I would have made 'closer' friends (near me) who I could call just to hang out with me. Hey that was a big mistake and I learned from it. Certainly not going to do that when I'm in my new school. Oh and another positive thingy. I'M RELEASED OF THE 'NOT SO SMART GIRL IN MY CLASS'. How can I not be grateful for that.



Another thing that I experienced is lost. My step grandmother passed away. 'She lost the battle against cancer', but that doesn't mean she lost her life. If you know what I mean. She has wonderful children. She welcomed my mother and her family in her own family. Cared for us. Even treated us like we were here her own grandchildren. I have to say, because of her I feel like I am her grandchild.

When my sister and I said goodbye to her on her deathbed, she said: I wish we met earlier so that I would have known you better than
I now do. She said more things but I'll keep that private. I made a drawing for her. It wasn't even finished. I feel like a lazy pig because I could finished it earlier if I wasn't that lazy.. All the time I put in useless stuff I just could have draw the picture of her. When I showed her the unfinished drawing she said it was beautiful and recognized herself in it. And maybe 'the unborn' will look like that. (When we frame the drawing I will post it.)  She'll keep it as reminder. When she said that she almost made me cry. But then my sister started crying really bad and I started too. We gave her a kiss and a hug when we left. With the thought of: this is the last time talking to her. No more short visits, no more joking about my laziness, no more nothing. She would go into a deep sleep.

They'd let her sleep and in her sleep she would pas away without pain. She slept for 2 almost 3 days and past away today.. 23.06.2012. The last time I spoke to her was Thursday the 21st.
21st of June. Exactly 6 years ago she found out she had cancer.

The reason why we got that close in a short amount of time was because she lived next to us. She was our grandma-neighbor. If I baked pie or cake or any kind of sweet thing. I would bring it to her on my bare feet or socks. And she would do the same. She would come over on birthdays and random days. Daily. I never met a woman that kind. I'll miss her

Just to make it less awkward lol, 

Because every time a read a sad post I sit there just in silence, feeling awkward...

Hope it works! 

(ps. Sorry for the grammar haha)

Not So Smart Girl In My Class

I have some pretty.. hmm not smart people in my class. And with "people" I mean this particular girl. 
Maybe you can guess this but YES I'm always sitting next to her!
One day we had German and of course she was sitting next to me. (that's not even the problem)
We got the assignment to translate a few words and than the sentences which was on the other side of the paper. So I was working on the assignment
All of the sudden she said (I'm translating this into English, because she said this in dutch): "Do you know what I get when I look up:  'The contact' in the dictionary? Something with computers"
I was truly amazed by what she said, well I thought she was joking. 
And when I said to her that you have to search under the 'C' from contact she replied: "Well, I think it should be searched this way"
I looked at her with the "WTF?" face expression. Again I thought she must been joking so I continued working.  And THEN SHE SAID (1 minute later) : "Your acting like i'm dumb" Uhm..? O.O' How is that not dumb? Less than 45 minutes where passed. She finished her assignment and said: "If you want some help, just ask me" 
Uhm.. HOW ABOUT: NO!
How are you going to help me if you don't know how a dictionary works!?


And this wasn't even the only thing that annoys me about her.
Let me tell you another story. 


For some reason I get higher grades in language courses than her.. Doesn't bother me that much. I don't know why it should. In the 'Exam-Week' I got higher grades again. Obviously it bothers her because she took 'higher education' or something but failed and now she's in a class with younger people 16-21 year. Kind of like Junior College. And i'm doing better than her..
So she said, her exact words were: " I don't like it that you have higher grades than me, because you don't do anything for it and I do" "plus I'm much more wiser and older than you" "Hmm, maybe it's because you talk English at home"
I was so angry when she told me that, I laughed it off. I don't even speak English at home we speak dutch like everybody else in my class. And I learned English just the way you did; YEAH THROUGH SCHOOL! 
It gets worse, but i'm not going to write that down because i'm tired! haha

 -.- sad part is.. She's 21 and lives with her boyfriend
I truly feel sorry for both of them.. I don't even want to know how they handle such things at home.

Sometimes you want to do this, but just don't have the courage and can't

My Strange Addiction.. Urine Drinking

Warning: Disgusting post

Have you maybe thought of drinking your own urine, just out curiosity? Hmm, can't really imagine that. The thought alone makes me wanna puke. Urine is 95% water and than there is 2% or 3% that are your body waste products, so when you drink your urine you are reintroducing those toxins and those byproducts in your system again. You can run the risks of kidney-failure, infections and dehydration.

I was looking around YouTube. And you know you always end up with a really bizarre video.
Yesterday, that happened to me. I stumbled upon this video called: "My Strange Addiction - Urine Drinker"
Let me just tell you: This video is freaking disturbing. This woman drank her own pee/urine. She called it the "urine-therapy". She was diagnosed with cancer and she thinks her "urine-therapy" helps her.

Not only she drinks her urine. No! She drinks it 'through her eye' with an eye-cup. She brushes her teeth with her own urine. She puts her urine in bath (with herself in it of course). And the most sickening one: She Used it as body lotion. Can you even imagine how she smells? And her pee is so freaking yellow that you can see that she's drinking her urine for 4 years.


She has 3 children. Who are surprisingly quite supportive (lovely daughters). But if my mom drinks her own pee, I can guarantee you. I'll have a problem hugging my mom if she uses pee as body lotion and brushes her teeth with urine.

If you want to see the video: Here it is!

My Strange Addiction: Cleaning

All i have to say is: Can this woman clean my room for me?O.o  

Part 1

Part 2

The Chunky Heel

You may or may not have heard of it. The chunky heel. It's one of the shoe trends, well for now.

I have to say: I always were a fan of chunky heels (with platform). Why? Because it looks classy, cute, edgy and feminine. Plus I could never walk in stilettos. The heels are so thin O.o! And if someone with 'thicker' legs wears them it looks like they are torturing the heels. Yes, lets be honest. Stilettos will look better on someone with slim/skinny legs. 

But why does the chunky heel suddenly appear A LOT?

Idk, don't ask me? I think the chunky heel is from the 70s.  Jep, that may sounds wrong, but i love the 70s. The clothes, the way everything was 'laid-back', (the serie) and the music. If you think about it most fashion trends/items repeats themselves. They just change 1 thing, modernize it and Voilá new hot fashion item. That is one of the cool things of fashion. That is my opinion. Just take a look.

Look at the design of the heel. Familiar? lol

Just picture the the white part black. And the yellow with blue spots,  black with white spots.

Modern, Right? By the way i would totally buy them if it was black with white spots.

Now the modernize chunky heel.

Haha you can clearly see i got the image from Milanoo.

I'm eyeing at these shoes for a long long time. I don't really think the fashion trends changes. I think the way we look at fashion changes . That's probably why we are liking the 'vintage-look' now. Now I'm thinking of it, my fashion taste hasn't changed (yet). I still like the polka-dot vintage/70s-50s look. I hoop i will still like it when I'm 60 wtf. Now that we already talking about heels, let me post the heels that i want.

First pair! How cute! ♥ And it's going to make me incredibly tall!

These shoes are cute as well, but a bit edgy. I think these are super easy to style with a dress, jeans or skirt. 

But i don't know what color  i want.

Another example of cute shoes that i want to buy. I think these shoes are that kind that you would only wear ones or twice and then put in your shoe rack to look at.. and pet them wtf?

So high and small!

I am into floral prints..

Wedges-love♥

Japan!

In love with Mary Jane heels.

Wow i feel like i can go one for hours, but let's not do that

Finding your talent

Finding your talent isn't always that easy. Many people don't know were they are good at and don't know how to find it. Everybody has a talent but for some its just difficult to find. You can even create your talent. By creating I mean getting skilled, teaching yourself.

My talent: Drawing. How did I discover I could draw?
Well, i always knew i could draw simple things without any problems and my mom could draw/paint too.
She had her paintings in the hallway. The paintings where so good i got inspired by them. and on school we had an assignment where you had to draw a celebrity. I drew Sohee from the wondergirls and got a 7,5. Thats a B- or something in American. When I saw that i got a  7,5 i was so unsatisfied. Just because i worked very hard on the drawing. Yeah, I'm one of those kids who aren't satisfied with anything lower than a B lol. So i set my mind with the thought: "I can do better than this and i will show them!" so i started drawing portraits from celebrity's and random people. Joined Deviantart. What helped me a whole lot. I got tips from artists there. And in 2 years i saw myself grow.

I went from this

To this..

So it is true you HAVE TO BELIEVE in yourself. And practice.

I've made a step-by-step plan you can follow.

1. Ask yourself: "What do i like to do?" What could i do?" "Am i willing to do this? " 
2. Get Inspired: Go look around outside. Look around youtube. Surf the internet. Go to places. Explore you!
3. Create realistic goals: For example: in 10 weeks from now.. In a month from now i want to..
4. Challenge yourself: This one goes with point 3. If you set yourself realistic goals try to even do better than the goals you just set, or make little challenges for yourself. 
5. Be passioned about it: If your passioned about what you do, you'll do everything easier.
6. Find out your learning style: Learning style could be learning through audio, watching people, asking tips. Doing it yourself and ask people about opinions so they can correct you. There are all kinds of learning styles. A course/class could be one of them.
7. Correct yourself: What is your weak point? Try to correct that with more practice on that specific point. With drawing for me that would be hair. At one point I only drew loose hair strands. Your weakest point could be your strongest point.
8. Write it down: Keep a journal or blog and write down in what you improved, what you could work on. What your goals are.
9. Share: Share your talent/skills with someone. Sharing your talent is not only good for you, but also for the people around you. You'd be surprised how sharing can help develop your talent.
10. Be open minded:  Your talent could be singing, dancing, writing, drawing but it also could be picking things up easily. Remember everybody is different everybody has different talents 
11. And lost but not least: Be patient: Be patient about getting better. Be patient about finding your talent. If you are going to fast you might miss it.  Try doing many different things. If something doesn't suite you/doesn't work out for you, move on. 

Acne.. How do I get rid of it?

Let's start with how acne is created: Your skin needs a certain amount of oil to keep it self healthy. But sometimes your body produces to much oil. Acne is the result to that.

Acne can be 'created' if you have a allergic-reaction from food. The most common food that can cause acne is:
Milk, chocolate milk (dairy products), pork, caffeine, processed food, candy(my favorite), ice cream, fried food, Chinese fast food etc.

Approximatly three-quarters of 11 to 30 years- old will get acne at some time. Some people can get breakouts only on their faces, backs and/or chest area. And let me just say, I have acne on my face and chest area. 4 YEARS on my face and 2 years on my chest. Acne can let you feel ugly and ashamed of yourself. I try to get rid of it, but i don't know how. I want acne treatments but mine insurance won't let me -.- fml. We try'd to change it. And for all the people out there who have bad acne, hold on their must be a cure. We just haven't find it yet.

Keep checking your skin. Write down how it reacts when you eat maybe pork or candy. If you breakout the next day. Chances are: You are 'allergic' to them and try to eat them less or not if possible.
Visit a dermatologist or your doctor who will sent you trough to a good dermatologist. Research the internet. Check your insurance to see if they reimburse an acne-treatment.  Because some treatments do help. They try to figure out what causes the acne from inside. And than they work on the outside. What is the most logic thing to do. Before spending money on that kind of treatments, try to do that on yourself.

Most of the time food is the cause of acne.

Acne treatments:

Benzoyl peroxide


Works in 2 ways:
It prevents dead skin plugging up hair follicles.
It kills the bacteria on the skin for example if your rub your hands against your face.
Because your hand are the main sources of bacteria! Just think. How many times did you typed something on the computer/laptop/ipad/phone and than rubbed or scratched your face!?

Benzoyl is avaible as cream or gel. Side affects of this product are: Dry skin, itching, redness/or peeling

Same goes for these products, same functions and same side affects: Azelaic acid, Topical antibiotics.
If one of them don't helps for you, you can always go to another. And don't just use them without the advice of a dermatologist/doctor.

There are several Antibiotics tablets for acne just look for them.


You also have Hormonal therapies 



Co-cyprindiol 


which can be used if your body doesn't respond to the antibiotics. Small risk is that woman can develop breast cancer in a later life. Side affects can be bleeding and spotting between your periods, which can sometimes occur for the first few months, headaches, sore breasts, mood changes, loss of interest in sex, weight gain or weight loss. (lol, sounds like PMS to me)

Isotretinoin



helps reduce the production of sebum, It helps prevent follicles from becoming clogged. It decreases the amount of bacteria on the skin. It reduces redness and swelling in and around spots.
Side affects are inflammation, dryness and cracking of the skin, lips and nostrils, changes in your blood sugar levels, inflammation of your eyelids, inflammation and irritation of your eyes, blood in your urine
(WTF!? O.O)

Rarer side effects of isotretinoin are inflammation of the liver inflammation of the pancreas and kidney disease.

There are still a few hormonal therapies i didn't mention. Just look them up.

REMEMBER I AM NOT A DOCTOR NOR A DERMATOLOGIST!
I'M JUST A BLOGGER! GO SEEK A DERMATOLOGIST FOR MORE INFORMATION ON ACNE MEDICATION.